SO HARD!

So I didn't get to go to the gym yesterday. Instead I went out to eat with Lee. I have to say though that throughout the day I did eat well. Today.. I kinda did.. I ate healthy all day then had subway! which was delish! but what I will do is have a very small dinner like soup or something. I finally spoke to my LapBand office and got them to make another appointment to finally fix my first adjustment! I know I'm being a brat and relying so much on this its just that.. this is WHY i got the surgery. BC I can't be left to my own devises. I say one thing, do another. I do good one day, bad the next. I want to be able to have this restraint where I eat and feel full right away. This surgery was not only a lot of money but a lot of planning and preparation. Since I started the process back in October I have gained weight. which makes NO sense at all! UGh I am just really frustrated. I just gotta keep on truckin!